i always wonder what i could’ve done better. i always thought it was something i had done. but in reality that wasn’t the case. i gave it my all and gave you everything i had to offer, i tried my best to make it work and i didn’t leave when everything went down hill. i answered every single phone call you made no matter where i was or what i was doing. i put you before me, always. i keep blaming myself but i now realize that it wasn’t my fault you didn’t appreciate or love me the way i deserved. looking back now, i wasted so many tears and energy on someone who never really cared about me . you didnt love me, you loved the idea of me. you liked having someone.