Unsent Messages

I don't even know what name you use these days, so sorry for that.
I wish that we hadn't dated, it was too much trouble for what it was and we were both so broken. No one should have to beg the person they love most not to kill themselves over long distance call, those days and nights waiting for you to call were torture for me. We were so very wrong for each other as you probably now know. However, I do forgive you for everything. Growing up with you was a pleasure, you shaped a large part of me that can't be understated. I'm so glad that we got to spend the best days of our youth together. We now live in completely separate worlds and are following different paths in life which are unlikely to ever cross again but a part of you will be with me forever. The love I hold for you is the love I hold for distant blurry memories, and half remembered conversations, complex but it sure is *something*, and it certainly isn't hate.

I hope that you lead a long and happy life, recover from your traumas, and find someone to adopt dogs with : )