I don't know where to begin. my heart is broken and shattered. you told me you would be there for me at all times and yet you left me ... not once but twice. words can not explain the type of hurt and pain that I am in. I just want to be close to you. is that too hard to ask? I'm trying not to keep us apart and yet it seems like you want to push me away . go ahead . push me away like everyone else does and i hate how you always know that i will come running back to you . its not fair how i have to be up this late and suffer while you feel something completely different . khadija , you are both my pain and my happiness