Unsent Messages

i feel bad abt us bcs i know we're not meant to be in eachother's lives, but i dont wanna let u go bcs im scared to hurt u w that, and i think u need me, although its bad. staying 'together' is gonna hurt, 'splitting' will too. idk what to do, i feel weird abt it all, i wish i could forget everything sometimes. but itll get better, i think, thats always how it goes, doesnt it? u need things i cant provide, things out of my reach. things thatll tear me apart. i cant give u what u need. it hurts, knowing im no good for u. but we just roll w it, untill the breaking point. i just hope we can ever go back to the beginning and start it all over again, bcs a lot went wrong. sorry i gave u false hope, hope i would never give u, but i told u i could. no, i cant, and i wont. i dont like it that u like me. i feel like ur always watching me. i just rolled w it to keep ur eyes off of someone else. im not a good person for u, u have to realise that. whatever we do will always escalate, u could be okay w it but it isnt good. i apologize, im in a mental breakdown at the moment and i hope youll never look up ur name, but its kind of fun when you do, so fuck it.