you would think that after me stopping calling you dad i would know how to spell your first name without thinking about it im sorry i cut you off you cheating on mom and leaving for your new girlfriend who you have a new family with was the most painful thing in the world i was so happy that i cut you off but now im the saddest i've ever been i miss you but only at night im scared youre going to die but i cant text you i dont my last text to you to be an apology im sorry i fucked up i cante belive its been 3 years i miss you more and more everyday i love you even though you caused me and mom the worst pain we ever expreinced you threw away 15 years of love with mom for a new girl and i'm scared to get into realtionships now because i dont want that to happen to me i cant imagine living without you but here i am doing it everyday im sorry im such a bitch i miss you i cant do this anymore