Unsent Messages

i put so much of my trust into you. so so much. that’s why it tore me apart so much. when you told me i should’ve thought about the lies before i got into it, well i was too in love. i still loved her when it happened, i was just sick of the constant lies because i have always been honest. to see you act so cruelly? how did that impact me? months sat in a hospital bed wondering why the fuck i deserved it. it wasn’t all you of course, but you’re definitely up there. i hope you feel some kind of guilt for how you acted, or maybe you haven’t changed. either way, i know now, as a teenager, that my life is ruined because of your actions amongst others. and i don’t mean that as a joke. like the after-effects of what you all did has literally effected me mentally to the point where i know that my quality of life will always be decreased. so the next person you get involved with, let them know about me. let them know why we don’t know each other any more. and warn them to keep their private business to themselves and their own family, not yours, just like how i would’ve wished i was warned about you. now, i can’t be “normal”. i’ve never felt true happiness since 2018. you STOLE my life, all of it. i’m not exaggerating when i tell you that every single day is a fucking struggle beyond comprehension.