Unsent Messages

you have been there for me for the past 5 years and have been my best friend thw whole way through high school. we have had our ups and downs but you will always be one of the best friends i have ever had. you make me smile without even trying and i love being around you. and you did like me, and i dont know if you do anymore but it made me feel special, i dont usually get that feeling when someone likes me but with you it was different. and you have done so much for me and everytime it nearly worked between us i fucked you over and im sorry for that. i supposed i just need to come to grips with the fact that you were my first love and some sort of feelings for you will always be there, yet i was young and immature so i left so many times. im sorry for everything, because i know it hurt you and even though it was such a long time ago i know it still hurts. i love you man.