Unsent Messages

Hey dad. You don't known me but I'm your daughter. I know it's stupid to ask but, why did you leave. I get you were 20 and a baby is a whole new form of responsibility but...why. I still don't know who you are, I don't even think you want to know me but I grew up with men pretending they were you until mum finally told me "he" wasn't my dad. You are. I never had a good relationship with any of mums boyfriends, I hated them all. She's married now and I have a baby sister. Even though you left. Eventhough I know you don't care, I wish you had stayed. I feel like my life would of been different. I wouldn't blame mum for everything or give her such a hard time. We nearly lost her last year. You didn't even need to meet me, a birthday card would have been nice. Or just an explanation why. I think about it. A lot. Mum says I'm like you and I remind her of you, which sucks because she doesn't like looking at me sometimes I think because I look like you. I wish you had stayed. I wish I could meet you and find out this is all some big misunderstanding and you want a relationship with me but my hopes for that are starting to leave. I'm sorry for whatever I did. I hope I meet you in the future, your daughter.