Unsent Messages

Ik this isn’t fair but for all the times I said I was “fine” “whatever” “ok” “forget it”, you should have known not to stop. I wanted you to prove to me that you cared about me and by dismissing me, you showed me that you aren’t the person I wanted you to be. You can look at literally most of our conversations and you’ll see that every damn time you responded like that, I wouldn’t settle for it, I would question you, and I was there for you because I knew there was more to you than those few words. I thought liking you was good but I never realized how hard it was for YOU to let me in. I blame myself because I keep thinking that I was never entirely honest or maybe I was hiding something but I never was, I was so vulnerable to you. It shouldn’t have been hard especially if you felt the same way which now I know the truth, a little too late. I shouldn’t be up late crying almost every other night because I wasn’t good enough and because I miss you. Liking you should have been joyful but it wasn’t, I was stressed, upset, and overthinking all the time. I fell in love with the wrong person and I know this now because all we did was argue and I questioned if I was even good enough for you. I had to wonder if you actually gave the slightest fuck about me. You fooled me.