From: ABC
To: eli
Date: September 16, 2020, 5:22 am
If I could tell you how i really feel this is what I would say to you:
Fuck you. FUCK YOU. because of you I don’t feel like I am enough. And I’m working through it but there’s that little voice in the back of my head always whispering your words to me. And because of you when he texts me I get a rush of anxiety because the only times you text me when we were “together” was for a bad reason. And fuck you because your not good enough to have done all this to me. Yet here I am struggling. Because you made me feel hard to love. Because you told me I wasn’t worth the effort. Fuck you for making me think that was love. And most importantly fuck you for making me lose myself in you. God I wish you knew, I wish you knew you were the biggest asshole I met but that I am rising above you. - from the one person who was always there for you when she should of been there for herself