I START NEXT WEEK theyre gonna text me n tell me when orientation shit is except i do not have my phone so H told me to tell them to text her instead im literally going to kms GHJDFGH HOW WOULD ETHAN KNOW THAT last yr this one girl at a school near mine did it by stepping in front of a train that shit scary fr dawg u do not understand how sucky it is living in this house H was in my room n she kept taaaalking ab how i cant talk to u guys n i j kept nodding n was crying n not sayin nun the other day n then she was like >:( say something so i said get out bjtbgjcfkjd idk what exactly she expected after telling me i cant talk to my closest friends n if i do she'll ruin their lives like what do u expect me to b like i simply cannot live like this idc ab college is in few months ik itll somehow get worse there is truly nothing