From: ABC
To: madison
Date: January 8, 2021, 2:56 am
Here I am, falling for you. To be honest it scares the fuck out of me. In the beggining I was scared that I couldnt do it and that I wasnt ready but now I know I am. You make me so happy and ive never been with someone like you. Someone who understands some of the things I have gone through. Someone who understands that some days I cant get out of bed and am quiet. Someone who will sit there on the phone, both of us on mute, while i have a panic attack just so I know im not alone. I am so scared that when I meet you in person for the first time that you wont like how I look or my body. I think that because of that I havent let my heart fully open up to you. I dont wanna get attached to someone just for them to leave again. So I guess thats my way of protecting myself. I dont have much experience with girls and im scared that will drive you away. We both want the same things and you are everything I have ever wanted in someone. I pray that your feelings wont change once we hang out in person. You are my person now and I dont wanna lose that. You have gone through so much in your life and you are the strongest person I have ever met. Im so proud of you and so happy you never gave up. I wish I could take all your pain away but thats what makes you who you are now. Who you are now is an amazing, sweet, funny, gorgous girl who I like a lot. I cant wait for all of the memories we will make together
