Unsent Messages

I loved you for years. You made me feel so whole after I was so broken. I loved you so much it broke me even more than I was before at the end of us. Your love consumed me so much it felt like I couldn’t function without you in my life. And I’ve tried to move on. We both have honestly. But it’s so hard when we end up coming back to each other. Everyone has the fairytale of ending up with their first “true love” and I should’ve known better. That rarely happens. Especially when you’re in love with a person who doesn’t even know how to deal with their own feelings because they’re too scared to deal with them. And I know mine was out of love and yours was out of lust. Sometimes I just think you loved my body more than me. And I guess that’s okay because I put myself in that position time and time again. But then it’s not because to you I was practically just a piece of cake to u for you to enjoy whenever you wanted to come back to me to enjoy. But I’m trying to move on. I blocked you on everything. But my heart cares more about your feelings than mine, so I unblocked you for the paranoia of you getting mad at me. I’m trying to move on and I pray I do. I never knew I could love someone so much as I did you. I hope you find someone to love as much as I loved you.