I hope I can look back at this and laugh at how I’m feeling right now. I like you a lot as a person. None of these colors feel right. I’d be so embarrassed if you saw this bc I think you’d know it’s me. I feel like if I post it here, it’s less real than me writing it in a diary. I don’t want to say how I feel out loud so I keep it to myself. I need somewhere to leave my thoughts and shelf them. I like you a lot and idk what way. Maybe both as a friend and something else. I think you’re really cool either way. Love you lots. I don’t write or talk this formally with you so hopefully you don’t know it’s me. But also, what are you doing looking at your name? Did you post on the 18th here? Do I even want to know.