Unsent Messages

As of right now, I still feel something for you because I care about you so much. It may be hurting my feelings that you don’t want me but I won’t leave your life again, I just have to move on and accept what you want because you deserve the world and my needs are irrelevant to your needs. I always wondered why you gave up so easily but still fought to keep your relationship with your ex after he cheated and idk I guess it’s bc you had more of an intimate relationship with him than you and I ever did. You said you would meet my parents again on iMessage and I sort of knew what u meant by that but I pretend to act dumb (I wish you were straight forward) but now idk what’s on your mind but it’s definitely not getting back with me and that’s okay. I just needed to let this all out because I’m tired of holding it in. I’m tired of pretending to not love you when I still do but I only do it because I want to see if you want me but you either send mixed signals or it’s all in my head because I’m manifesting it subconsciously.