Unsent Messages

I counted up the small noted side notes from my textbook, gathered a couple of journals spelling your name out loud and a book filled with imagery and space, and non-compel to the feeling you’ve left me with, I could care less about a box that has nothing but past words that don’t have any idea where they are now, looking back maybe weeks prior I wonder if Joanna Marie knew what was going to happened, I wonder if her writing love letters at night and through her day would have prevented this, but obviously I still held onto that magnitude of hope (hell I still am), I’d put a sticker on the top right corner and kissed it, I’d always do that, I’d leave your names in napkins, coffee cups, books from the local bookstore, I’d even write them in l ripped out papers big or small; and who knows, maybe by chance you’d see one rolling by, I imagine you picking up some book you found in the ground and by curiosity you’d open up it up to your name plastered on it. And if you were more curious, you would flip through the pages just to find my name, and in the corner of its page, a small heart

The website was down for a few days, left a song in the playlist or maybe a couple I mean, I hope you’re days are filled with more joy, love, you know the rest, I don’t want to get emotional again. The hours pass by in the snap of my fingers and I hate it, It’s been almost two weeks, and sooner or later a damn month, the days have been going rather fast for me.
Anyways I left this one song in specific, not even an hour or two ago, Drive safe by Rich Brian, it’s been on repeat for a few days with all honesty, it’s better slowed though
I miss you Kian, I love you.
Yours truly, Bee.
P.S I’ll be updating on here 2-3 times a week, since the website kinda just takes load as you can tell perhaps.
I love you, so much still