hey.. been a while since we talked. it's approaching what would have been our 3rd anniversary and i cannot stop thinking about you. i understand that our relationship was incredibly toxic and you were very manipulative but you were my first love. i loved you so much and to find out u only got w/ me out of pity because u felt bad for me and u thought eventually you would fall in love with me was absolutely heart shattering. i haven't been in a relationship since we broke things off for good last year. i don;t know if i can even say we were together for 2 years because of how off and on it was. every time i would leave u, somehow u would convince me that u changed and then the cycle of manipulation would repeat. i guess it is partly my fault for going back so many times, but it does not make it hurt any less.