hey dear. i really miss you tonight. i miss the calls that lasted until 6am, the bubbas and the silly nicknames. i miss you, mostly. i still love you i think. i think about you alot. but i know you probably want nothing to do with me. you've changed so much. i know you aren't happy right now but i know one day it'll all be okay for you. so this has to be goodbye. for me. i can't keep wanting to go back, i can't. even if it hurts. thank you. even though it wasn't for long, i'm happy it happened. im happy that i got the chance to meet you. i love you kaizen, please be safe