Unsent Messages

I doubt you will even realise it's you this is for when you read it, but i've seen the stuff on here that could have possibly been you saying it. Whether it is you or not that's said things I think it's helped to really think about what happened. Thing is there was a lot of things I blamed myself for for a hell of a long time that I now see I shouldnt have blamed myself for and subjecting myself to that sort of disappointment in myself was tough to recover from. Hell I havent even tried dating a girl ever since but you started things with other guys and that just made me feel like an idiot for feeling that way. The way I felt about you was real, idk if it was just some young naive feeling of love or true love itself but it was a real feeling, you could feel it emotionally and physically like this energy trying to burst out your chest. But that feelings gone now and even though part of me still does love you idk if i can ever go back to feeling that way. S.