Unsent Messages

hey. ik we’re literally snapping rn but i just wanna let yk that i’m hurting. bc we’re still close but so far away from each other. ik it’s been years since we broke up and i wanna get over it, but i can’t. bc just when i think i’m ready to let u go and forget ab everything you text me, or call me, or snap me and i fall right back down again. ik u may not care anymore and may have moved on and that’s fine. but i haven’t, and it fucking sucks. i wanna move on and find someone who will treat me right, but u come right back into my life like nothing ever happened. and i’m grateful that you’ve always been there especially when everyone turned their backs on me, but u also hurt me so much. i wanna hate u and block u on everything and forget you even exist... but i also love you and wanna go to ur house and watch you play video games and cuddle me when ur friends wake me up from my nap. i hate that i miss you so fucking much.