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I don't know what to say. I can't explain what I'm feeling right now. I'm just so hurt. Why did you lie to me? Why did you make me suffer so much pain after I begged you not to hurt me? I opened up to you about my past and told you about him. I told you about how he broke me and how he used me. I was so serious about you, but you took me as a joke and ended up using me because you were bored. Was I not good enough? What did I do? Why did you promise me loyalty if you were going to talk to ten more girls? I'm so tired of wondering where I went wrong for you to use me for your benefit. You hurt me and left me broken and in pain. All my questions remain unanswered because of your constant lies. All I asked was for your honesty. I begged you for it. You knew I needed reassurance. But you didn't give it to me because EVERYTHING you told me was a lie after lie. I even confronted you about lying to me about loyalty, and all you had to say was, ''I don't know what you're talking about''. It's not fair. At all. I gave you my heart and trusted you. But you took it and shattered it, even after I asked you not to. After I found out what you did to me, I lost complete respect for you. I knew I had to let you go. I forcefully stopped loving you because I knew you were wrong for me. I knew you weren't who I pictured you to be. You did so many things behind my back. Things you promised me you'd never do. I'm so hurt by what you did. All the pain you put me through. You moved on after two days. You went to see a girl and left me in despair. You told people lies about me but, why? Did I truly mean nothing to you? What did I mean to you? I'm so curious it hurts me. I just want answers to get closure.