heyy. one day you'll read this. hopefully when i'm dead so you don't have to confront me. you weren't my first love but you played an important role in my life. you helped me realise my sexuality.(i can see your jaw drop). i don't know why this embarrasses me so much. only 4 people know this. now you do. i'm really sorry i'm not there to wipe your tears and tell you it'll be okay. it might be comforting to know that i'm finally happy. you'll make loads of new friends, you'll find a new best friend. i swear. try and stay strong. although we had our ups and downs, i love you. thank you for always being there. i'll miss you. see you soon!