i'm starting to dislike seeing your face. not in that way, but when i see it, i get sad. almost immediately. why did you have to make so many unnecessary promises with me that you knew you wouldn't be able to keep. you really hurt me, you wasted my time. but at the same time you didn't, you taught me to be aware of people like you. i think about you everyday maybe because you post everyday but, do i ever cross your mind? are you slowly forgetting the way my voice sounds, the memories we shared, and inside jokes had. i loved you, regardless of our 2k miles distance. i loved you, regardless of your mood that hour, or if you couldn't talk to me for a long period. i loved you, just because. i still don't know why you had to lead me on. i wish i understood you better, i wish i understood myself better. i told myself when you started talking to me to, "not talk to her, she's gonna end up like your last ldr". however, you showed me that you were better than the last. all to turn out the same. well, goodbye now. i hope you get into your med school, i hope you get over the shit that was constantly bothering you. i wish you the best even if you don't wish me the same. i never did anything wrong but hatred is a part of getting over someone. thank you for loving and hurting me.