Unsent Messages

I dont think you genuinely care like at all.you make it seem like you do and then you go back to your old ways. it just feels like this is the end, the death of our relationship is near and i dont know what to do because i really dont want this to be the end and i care so muchabout you and i honestly dont think you could give a single shit if i were to kill myself right now. im trying not to let go or push you away but you know me the second i feel someone is about to leave i push them away in fear of getting hurt. i dont know how totalk to you about things either you seem so uninterested and like you really dont care what im tlkiing about. i want to talk to you, i want to let you know the small things happening in my life but i dont think you care so i dont really talk about what I want to talk about with you but i gladly extend on thing you seem to like i get super into it and try to keep talking but you seem so unenthusiastic as in when i start extending on something you like youll say "yeah" and then leave me on opened for whatever fucking reason. i dont care about not talking every second of every day but when were in the middle of a conversation and you just stop respnding and leave me on opened that shit hurts. especially when its something i want to talk about with you and you just brush it off. it hurts soemtimes you know? i just dont know what to do and i feel lost and helpless when i talk o you so i put less effort into conversations just because i know youre gonna end it eventually so theres no point in putting this energy into our conversation if you dont care. whatever, anyways bye.