Unsent Messages

our love was definitely this color, i mean im not even sure that u loved me even just for a little while. the one thing that im sure about with all of this is that i really liked u, maybe it was love, idk. but all the ly s and sweetheart s gave me butteflies, just like the way u used to vompliment my outfits. even tho we never got the chance to do it irl, watching a movie with u was really good, i was looking forward to it every time. there was a time when i was dying to be in ur friendgroup, even before u got to know them. idk how i feel about those ppl anymore, nowadays im discovering all these darker sides of certain ppl, including myself and thats not the sweetest thing, but it has to be done. im also working on raising my standards so cheers to me, thats mostly why ure being cut out. although this is all really new, i realized ure not good for me and i deserve better. now im taking a step back, well see if u will mind it or not, im protecting my heart. and realizing this in time makes me so so proud oof myself. i dont want to be sad bc of u, thats why im letting u go. i would write a novel, but theres school tomorrow and i really need to sleep. i hope u will be happy, with or without her. ill always be by your side and will always love u. u stay right here, always in my heart, benike. yours sincerely, bitch.