Unsent Messages

Ya know, I always thought we would end up together. From 5th grade until senior year, we've been going back and forth. Liking each other to becoming strangers. I've told you countless times, but I love you. Not the kind of love where you wake up and everything is perfect. Not the kind of love that comes easily. The kind of love that develops and grows deeper as time continues.The kind of love that comes when you don't even think you're capable of it. I was able to drop my family. I was able to drop all of my best friends. I am incapable of dropping you. I tried. Time and again I try to push you out of my life, but I care for you more than you'll ever know. More than I'll ever lead you to believe. You called me at 4:37am when you got a minor from the cops and I answered. When the cops busted the party I was at, you have never seemed more uninterested and bored.
I used to beg the universe to finally bring us together. However, I realized that's not what I want. It sounds cliché but all I want is for you to be happy. You took the plans that you and I made, and you did them with another girl. You were happy, so I pretended as if it didn't break my heart in half. I know you'll never see this and our lives will go different ways after this year, but I will never forget you. You unknowingly taught me what it means to love someone.
Owen, I love you.