Unsent Messages

I have liked you for so long and I wish I could tell you one day. But I'll never be brave enough, simply because I fear you would hate me. You're my best friend and you were my first real friend and I am so incredibly thankful for you. I don't think you realize how the little things you do and say drive me insane, sometimes you say things that give me so much hope but then you always find someone who has the balls to actually show how much they care about you. It always hurt me so much when you got into relationships because I know that they have the thing I wish I could have.

This relationship you're in now is different though. This time I was starting to like them too, and you both gave me so much hope at the same time. Some of the things you both told me gave me a small bit of hope that one of you liked me, but I should have known that wouldn't happen. But the worst part is, it doesn't make me sad that you two are together. It makes me sad that it can't be the three of us. You aren't into that and I respect you both enough to know not to bring up liking either of you because that would be a dick move on my behalf. I wish I could grow a pair and actually tell you this but we all know that is never going to happen.