I wish you were different when i told you about my depression, i wish you would´ve support me and still love just the way i used to love, i didn´t even care about your past and how you were, i just loved you for the way you treated me, i love you for the way we used to talk about silly things, about serious things, about funny things, about everything, i´ve never had that connection with someone and i´ve never known if you felt the same way because i didn´t tell you anything and sometimes i miss you, but i know it was for the best, i have to heal myself and i don´t feel prepared to love someone when i don´t even love myself. I hope you´re okay and i forgive you, im too hard to handle, i´m too hard to love, love you.