I search my name every day and search through these messages, hoping that I'll find one from you. I think I lost you a long time ago, and I just haven't been able to let go completely. I'm stuck. You left without so much as an explanation or a goodbye, and it's too late now to change what happened after. I couldn't say it the other night, but I miss you too. Much more than I should. Maybe that's wrong, but I can't help it.