Unsent Messages

This is my actual apology. im not sure if you still go by this name. i kinda hope you dont see this anyway. but what the fuck i am so so sorry for taking you for granted. every time i think about what i did to you, i gag. i was being so stubborn. that night where we ended it, my eyes were blurry with tears, i knew this wasnt gonna be worth it. every time i reached out since, i hoped you would give me another chance somehow. but im letting go now. im going to leave you alone. the birthday message was the last. you deleted my number, and that was the end for me. i still miss you more than anything and want you back in my life, i would do it all over again without hesitation. so much has happened since im dying to tell you about, but ill keep writing letters until then. i love you and i am glad youre listening to mitski. a.