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thanks for always saying how "skinny" and "anorexic" i looked in middle school. oh and never forget that fun lil nickname u gave me bc i was visibly struggling w body image. :) it took me 2 whole years to realize that everything u said about me wasnt true. that i wasnt "dead-looking" or too pale or too skinny. i was just fine and instead spent 2 years hiding myself bc i could never be what everyone thought i should be. it took some really hard times and lots of self love to realize i am perfectly fine the way i am. i am perfect in my own eyes and i dont need ppl around me to reaffirm me. all that wasted time spent thinking about how i didnt fit what the ideal girl blonde hair and blue eyed girl looked. and remember when u sarcastically called me barbie bc of my hair and eyes? it may have seemed like fun to u, but that shit hurt. the way that u guys had to put me down to bring urselves up was soooo fucked up and i didnt realize it until i found actual friends who care about me and want me to thrive no matter their own situation.

oh and p.s., faking an eating disorder isnt cute :) especially when ppl around u actually have them