i’m so sorry. i’m sorry for that hurt i made you feel. i put you through pain and it makes my heart sink thinking about it. i look at you and all i can see is how i hurt you. i wish i could take it back. it was the biggest regret of my life. i’m sorry i cut you off and i’m sorry i did it in the way i did. i needed you the most then. i should’ve just been open with you instead of forcing you away in the worst possible way. i would do anything to take that pain from you. fucking anything. i’ve fucked everything up and i know i can’t ever go back but i just want you to understand that the fact that i can’t undo what i did makes me want to tear my fucking heart out. it tears my fucking heart out. i miss you so much