Unsent Messages

You said that you would always be here for me but you left the second someone better came along. You were one of the only people I ever told about my mental health issues and trauma that I've been through. I really trusted you and you judged me for that. You ruined me for a little while and completely made me question my self esteem. I thought that I was worthless because you told me that you loved me and that I could count on you. I really thought that I could believe you but then you turned into someone I don't even recognize. It's like you betrayed my trust in every way you knew you could and then walked away and wrote off everything that happened as collateral damage for you getting to be happy in life now that you don't have to deal with my problems anymore. I never wanted to burden you. I just thought you loved me enough where you could help me so I wouldn't have to carry it alone. I don't trust people anymore because of you. I don't say "I love you" as easily as I did before because of you. Because you were the one person I thought genuinely loved me and would always be here. I thought I found it with you but you just felt sorry for me I guess. Or maybe you just wanted to seem like a nice guy. But either way, you really, really hurt me. You made me feel like I was completely unlovable. I'm better now but that doubt that you put in me never went away because every time I think someone is starting to love me I remember what you put me through and feel like love isn't even worth it anymore.