it’s been a year. i miss our hugs. i hope i get one last one . the last time i saw you when we were a thing, just before christmas, when i was saying bye as my mum came to pick me up i hugged you so tight and couldnt work out why i suddenly felt so inclined to wrap my arms around you and hold on. you told me you’d see me soon and i think subconsciously i knew that that was the last time you’d hold me. at least for a while. maybe you knew that too. i feel stupid for loving you this much when we weren’t even anything real in the first place. it felt real though...over the phone