Unsent Messages

my hearts in pain but that’s okay. i don’t know why i’m still so attached to you. you’ve shown me and made it clear to me that you don’t want nothing to do with me. yet still, here i am. i told you everything yet still, you left. you’re gone but you’re still here, you’ll leave again. you want to go, but how can i make you stay? i want to talk to you all the time. it’s actually embarrassing. i always wanna talk to you. i don’t really get to though. i miss you. i love you still. why? i don’t know. even these days when every time we talk it’s about the same topic and it’s not a pleasant topic at all, i still feel that feeling of overwhelming love after talking to you. even when the conversation is hard and painful and when you say things that make me cry. you said it yourself, that i’m not ready to let go and you don’t think i’ll ever be. you’re right. i’m sorry. i love you.