Unsent Messages

I uh chose brown cause that is your skin color LOL. Um this is awkward cause I know you never thought of me EVER or at least in that way. You definitely were not my first love or girl crush so your not as special as you think, sorry that was harsh. BUT, you were the first girl to make me question a lot. my other girl crushes I had not realized them yet but with you I knew I wanted to be more than friends. We are surrounded by lesbians every day so I knew if I held your hand it wouldn't cause WWIII. Then you got a girlfriend. If you just got a girlfriend I would be fine a normal girl but you HAD to be with HER. She constantly looked at me like I was some gum under the chair like WTF did I do. Then you go and get with her. That's what hurt the most. But, its not like you cared or noticed because you never noticed me in the first place. Even though we were on the same team but then so was she. I guess we both found our girl crushes on the field. I tried to comfort you when I could but SHE was always there. It always felt awkward so in the end I gave up because I knew there was no point. I am writing this because I am over you and the stupid little girl crush I had. Thanks for that heart crushing experience HHAAH hope I never see you in person again HAHA I will probably run/look the other way or ignore you because that's just me and it's not like you'll notice I am doing anything because your like a boy, you are so oblivious and couldn't even realize how BAD i had it for you. Then I saw you guys hugging on the bench at school. That was when I knew you never even saw me or knew me at all. HAHAH if you knew who wrote this you'd get so awkward HAHHA ummmm yeah glad this is a thing I feel better already