Unsent Messages

Hey,
You were the first boy I properly liked. I thought it was love, now I realise it was infatuation. When you told my best friend you weren't ready for a relationship, it broke me a little bit. Firstly because you felt more comfortable talking to her than me, and secondly because you seemed like you were ready when your tongue was down my throat. Not 5 days ago, you were telling people how you were going to ask me out and how much you liked me. I just wonder what changed your mind? Is it your dad? Have you found someone else? Or did you simply just fall out of infatuation? It's the hardest thing to get over someone you didn't even date because what even do I have to get over? I wish I could ask you.
I know you have a lot going on, but I don't want you to think I'm just this happy, bubbly person all the time because I'm not. Sometimes I feel like the loneliest person in the world. I know you get sad sometimes, but so do I. I hope this wasn't a reason you ended things because I need someone like you to keep my head above the water. If that's not you, then that's not you - there's nothing I can do. I truly hope you are happy and I wish you the best.