Unsent Messages

It’s not that I didn’t like you, I just didn’t KNOW. I didn’t want to turn around and do the same thing your friend did to me. I didn’t want to have a relationship with you and then I realize I don’t have those types of feelings for you. I do like you, I really do, like there’s so many things about you that inspire me and make me happy. And I know if we were together— I would be SO HAPPY. But I didn’t want to do you like that— because I don’t have the same physical attraction you have. Call me shallow, I don’t care. I just don’t want to be the EXACT thing I’ve complained to you about 100 times. I didn’t want to put you through that, so it’s better this way. I’m sorry, I miss you so much. So so SO fucking much. Every day I think about how different things would have been if I kissed you while we were laying on my bed. I remember your laugh, energy, the voice and puppy dog eyes you had when you asked me questions about my life. I MISS YOU. But I know you deserve better, and I can’t do that to you.