i always ask if youre okay, try to tell you i need you here, that you need to stay but youre never here for me the same way? you know i have issues too but you never ask. i know i seem like a selfish asshole but i just need someone to properly be here for me, people always pretend and i just need someone to be sincere. i know you dont care about me but your hugs feel so genuine, so very caring even though i know it means nothing. i dont know how i feel, im sorry.