You were my first everything and I mean everything...sorry for lying. I miss you. The feeling that you left in my stomach was indescribable, the smile that would pop up on my face was just amazing. I miss you a lot, but not really you. I think it’s just the idea of you. This false reality that was created into my brain. I hope you’re enjoying life in cali. I miss the feeling you used to give me. Somedays I wish that I never met you. But I’m glad we met, because you taught me something, something truly valuable, some people aren’t waiting for, because they’ll never be ready. You were never ready for any of this but you threw yourself into it, hoping that you were. I miss you, but it’s probably not you, just the feeling.
