i have 3 midterms (ok i guess leccion 2 prueba wasn’t technically a midterm) today and the only thing in my brain is you.

sometimes i think i’m delusional and just another shitty ex boyfriend in denial now.

but then i read the letters you wrote me, and i relive our road trip, and i remember that what we had was the realest love i’ve known.

i’m still holding on to the hope, like you asked me to.

every time i look at my ring, i remember. i wear it everyday.

i wish i could be there for you for all of this but i’m trying to respect that i can’t.

i keep having to learn to trust God and relinquish control. it’s really hard. but his plan is much better place than mine.

if sending these is upsetting you, please let me know and i’ll stop. i don’t want to hurt you emma. i’m so sorry that i have.

praying for you always & love you forever.