you definitely werent my first romantic love lmfao ( weird asf ) but i did love you alot. like alot. i miss you and think about you and hope youre doing good wherever you are. you have a special place in my heart, even if i dont in yours. im sorry i never really said goodbye and ghosted you. i was scared. i didnt want you to leave. i wanted to leave first. and i didnt want to hurt you because i was struggling, but it probably hurt either way. im sorry. i have a hard time forgiving myself for this. i think about it daily. you are the most positive person i have ever met. anyways LMFAO. miss u. hope ur well.