Unsent Messages

im so sorry. i think it's been about five months since you left me and i havent wanted to talk about you or even think about you until now. i'm terrible right now. they say it gets worse until it gets better and i hope that's true. i have a lot of dreams about us sometimes. it's always the same; you tell me you still love me and hug me, we hang out and laugh, then i wake up. i wake up and sometimes i don't let it get to me, but other times i cant help it. i wish you wouldve stayed longer and given me a chance. i miss you, but at the same time i have so much hatred for you because you liked another girl while you were with me. everyday, you told me you loved me while you went to sleep dreaming about her. it crushes me and at times i just wanna hurt you, but i know i did the last few months we were together. i wish you would come back so i could apologize and fix things, but the truth is im not a part of your life or mind anymore. im practically nonexistent to you and i guess that's something i'll have to accept. if you see this, which you most likely won't, please just come back.