Unsent Messages

I never thought that this would happen to me, to be in the situation of putting another person before myself, begging for love and accepting crumbs with total feeling for something, whatever, not seeing for my mental health and what that it would do me good to continue having you in my day to day, in reality what I felt for you was not entirely love, it was more an obsession an obsession for wanting that love that consumes you that makes you vibrate and makes you feel alive and You were not even 10% of that, you were never what I wanted, what I was looking for but you were there and it seemed enough, despite all that I cried and all that I suffered, you taught me many things, that love is not requested, that things are not forced and above all that love should not feel like that, it is not your fault in reality one cannot force their feelings or do things that are not born because love is not that way, so in the end I will not say that you were my first love but that you were my first experience related to that, and when you see again I have the certainty that I will no longer feel what I used to and in the end I will be able to recover myself, so thank you, you were a lesson in how I should not feel, you taught me how I am not supposed to be Because those hopes that I had so much that you would regret it and begin to value me are slowly going away like everything I ever felt