Unsent Messages

where does this start. let's go month by month. January- you just got out of a toxic relationship that ended with him cheating. you ended up talking to someone but things didn't work out with you per usual but he really was a great guy. you ended up hooking up with the best friend of the guy who cheated on you. you gave someone their first kiss and that news ended up all over school. February- you got into a great relationship with one of your closet friends and it was so much fun. he was great you really liked him. March- oh there's a lot so the 1st day of the month you went to the Post Malone with your friends and it was so much fun and one of the best night ever. Then hit the pandemic. It was declared a pandemic on your dads birthday and you didn't know what was going on in the world. On the last day of school you woke up very sick and thought you were one of the first people to get it but it was actually just strep throat. then a couple weeks later your bf broke up with you. April- your toxic trends with working out and eating start May- it started to get a lot worse and would try and get under 1000 calories a day and if you did you were so proud of yourself. June- was probably one of the worst months ever. your eating trends were awful and your sleep schedule was so fucked up and you liked it that way because it meant less calories during the day. you cried all the time and weighed yourself every single day to make sure you weren't gaining anything. you lost about 10 pounds which your body doesn't have room to loose too much. July- things were starting to get better by you forcing yourself to get up at a certain time and forcing yourself to eat 3 meals or try your best and it was getting better. August- everything was getting better and school started on campus and you were so excited. September- school was in full swing and you were beyond happy to be there and wish you still were. October- a lot of shit happened. you turned 17 upset friends but that's a lot to talk about. oh you and one of your best friends go harassed. You became very sad. November- you are really trying to get better in every single way but that is still extremely hard