carson you mean so much to me. i don't get to say it much because i feel awkward saying these kinds of things to people but i love you a lot (platonically) and i like you a lot (romantically). i have such a soft spot for you it is not even funny. thank you for being my friend, i doubt we'll end up being any more but that's ok with me because i still care a lot about you. be kinder to yourself, ily