Unsent Messages

im jealous of the fact that you may be happier with someone else. i hate you for lying to me and for not apologizing to me. i prayed for you when i didnt even believe in god, i prayed and ask him to make sure you stayed in the right path and it would lead to us being together again eventually. i tried so hard for you. i fought with my family and against the world just for you to leave... i guess we were both to young to know how to handle situations i mean we were both 12 and 13 feeling things we couldnt describe. i miss you not in a relationship type of way but in a way that i miss my bestfriend. i used to be able to tell you everything and now i just act like things dont bother me anymore. everyone tells me ive changed but if they had to go through the sh1t that i went through they would change too. im tired here i want to go home. thats what u were to me i still see u everywhere and i know you do to. we both grew up and had the same personality you cant forget about a person that fast. i hope you still think about me and i hope that one day we will be able to have a conversation without it being made up of lies.