Unsent Messages

I still think about you. It's been over a year and for some reason, I still seem to hear your name or see your friends post you. I wish you could have given me the closure I wanted or told me that you just didn't love me anymore. I still see you in my dreams and I hate it. I've recently been on a date for the first time this year but they're just not you, so I had to let him go. I also had to unfollow you on social media and remove you from everything else because I just couldn't bear to see you post things like polls about asking people to go on dates with you. It hurt my heart and I couldn't bear it. As I'm typing this, a few tears fall down my cheek and it just goes to show that some scars really never heal, or at least they don't heal even after a whole year, it really does take time... I get tempted to request to follow you again but I know that will just make me look stupid and you'll just think I'm embarrassing myself or you'd probably just make fun of me for it. Who knows, I don't know you like that anymore. I hope you didn't take it the wrong way tho. We both needed some growing and maturing to do. Anyway, I hope you're doing good and I hope life has been treating you well. I'm sorry on my part for all the shit I've done to you. Sorry never meant a thing to you coming from me and I understood why but I really mean it. Anyways bye, you left your mark on me and your name will always be engraved on my heart. I hope one day you can find your true love, as will I. We both deserve it.
Sincerely,
Lala.