Unsent Messages

god, i know we were never anything more than friends, but i really liked you. i liked you so fvcking much. you were the best part of my day. it didnt matter if we all u said to me was one word, it made my entire day. i told my friends about this boy i liked and even they got invested. until today. you really didnt have to tell me. but u did. i couldve kept everything how it was. we couldve stayed friends at least, but now i feel like ur going to stop talking to me. i cant help but keep imagining you blocking me. i keep thinking about u. damn it i really liked you, why'd u have to screw it all up. i know neither of us are honestly in the right mindset for a relationship anyway, but god it sure was fun to think about. if u didnt like me why did u always flirt with me? i mean u literally were flirting with me earlier today. were u just bored? am i not what u want? or do u just like her better? ive cried over u so many time and i really hope this is the last time u make me cry. i really dont want to lose you though. WHY DID U HAVE TO SAY ANYTHING? it was fine before u said that. you shouldve known it was a stupid thing to say. then u had to ask if i liked u. of course i like u, we've been talking for months and ur charming, ur beautful, and u make me smile constantly, even if it dosent seem that way. part of me wants you to just block me so i can pretend u never even existed. but most of me wants to try harder. i really like u borja. please dont leave, even if im not the one u want. i honeslty hope u never see this