Unsent Messages

you became a stranger. i didn't even know you and didn't even care. i put everything into you. we were perfect. but you became exactly who you said you'd never be. you knew everything about me, i poured my heart out to you. and you left. just like you said you wouldn't, just like the boys you hated because they did it to me. i don't know when you changed into this person. the scary, mean, unwelcoming, thorny, cold person. i don't know when and that's what's scary. that's what hurts. i don't even miss you. your stubbornness, your childishness, your sensitivity, i don't miss that. i miss the ellis that let me listen to his heartbeat. the ellis that smiled after we kissed. the ellis i loved. i let him be replaced by this horrible person, and i let it happen. it's my fault you broke my heart. i hate myself for that. but i hate you more for telling me you loved me and then you let me break my own heart.